Thinking of you..thinking of me, the night drags on and on. Thoughts of why, what if, whats coming roll through my mind. One, two, three... the night turns into morning, dark becomes light, my head continues to spin. Not thinking of myself or what matters to me but you, all of you that prevail in my life. Every single face, voice, and smile that has ever crossed paths with my eyes and ears, I do this for you. Happiness of other people is by far the number 1 goal of my life.. Seeing the smiles and success, just the change makes waking up every morning worth while.
I sometimes wonder how me, a 18 year old college student can say that. I lay here looking back on my life wondering what have I done? Who have I helped? The real question I always get is "what do you do for yourself?" Well nothing... my drive, desire, and willingness comes from others. I want to see the results, the proud hugs, endless thank yous come from others to me! I live everyday for you, all of you...
As I continue my journey in life, I come upon struggles, regrets, and discomforts. Right now I am facing what to me is the biggest decision of my life, and possibly the first thing I have solely done alone and for me. I can only dream of the outcome, see the end, and that's what the endless hours of work, and struggle are for. I am on my pursuit of happiness and love, I do it for the good of my family, friends, and peers. Not for me..... once again in the end the proud hugs, endless thank yous, and never ending love makes the person I want to be. I live everyday for you..
Love always,
ko
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